This is not at all what I expected I would be doing when I left 3 weeks ago. I try to stay away from using cliches as much as possible – but this quote by Lennon is too good to pass up. “Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.” I think this is the first time that I really get that quote.
I had planned on traveling around Thailand for a month before my trip to Malaysia. The goal was to find a place that I wanted to stay for a 2-4 months to work and write and figure out next steps. Things were going as planned during my first two days in Bangkok – the city very quickly reassured me that it was not somewhere I wanted to stay for any length of time!
I was divided pretty evenly between the next 3 places I was going to go: Chiang Mai – a big but quiet(er) city in the North of Thailand, Ubon Ratchathani – a less-frequently touristed city on the far East side of Thailand, or Koh Tao – an Island known for diving in the Gulf of Thailand. I chose Koh Tao on a whim (I wanted to see the ocean…) and have been here for the past 3 weeks.
When I return from Malaysia and the Philippines in mid-October I’ll be starting my Dive Masters Training on Koh Tao and won’t be leaving until the beginning of December at the earliest.
To be honest – this both terrifies and excites me.
Here’s what’s exciting:
Here’s what’s terrifying:
And yet, despite my concerns, I’m more than happy with where I am right now.
As I’ve gotten older I’ve seen how what I thought I wanted and what I actually wanted can differ greatly. Even though we all try to pretend that things don’t change and that the future is predictable – it just isn’t true. Not even a little bit. Think back 5 years ago and try to get inside the mind of who you were then. Try and recall where you thought you’d be and what you thought you’d be doing in 5 years. How’d you do?
Goals change, friendships and relationships come and go, industries are created and economies crash – the only constant is change and I’m trying my best to embrace it!